Lol. You think I can't guess the truth behind all this chaos? I'm 22. Not 12. I know there's something wrong bout the story I heard. Anyway, it just one side of story that has been told. Sampai bila2 pun aku x kan tau sape betul sape salah. Itu aku aware. Both side wanna win. But I choose to be with the side that do not say harsh words to me through twitter. Social network brings more negative than positive isn't they? Sigh~~
Even if I heard your side of story, even if your's story is the right story after all, tell me. How can I be ok after all the harsh words you gave to me? I can't. The story alone has make me cry. Apetah lagi those harsh words.. No. I cannot tolerate with mean words. I just can't.
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Disappointed
I'm so disappointed after hearing what my bf said yesterday. Sedih. Kecewa. Marah. Orang cakap harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi. huhuhu..
I thought the one that i can call my friends are so nice cause they say good stuff in front of me. But i was wrong. They actually don't want to see me happy. :( Ya allah sedihnye... As you guys know, me and my bf has getting back together. I don't know a better reason for this except that we truly love each other. I know it was my fault back then but i learned my mistake. Who are you to judge me? I can judge you anytime I want, but I didn't. Why? Because you are my friend. And I believe people shouldn't be judge based on their past. I can spread about what you did in the past anytime I want but I don't want to. So why you did that to me?
It's start when I broke up with my bf. Yeah I know it was my fault. I know that my bf is a good person, he deserves someone better than me. But seriously I never thought that will come out from your mouth. Someone that I've called friend for years. What makes me lose my respect on you is you pretend to be so happy when i got back with my bf. Why? Sigh~ You even said that i'm lack with religion teaching. Seriously? Who are you to talk about my religion??? May Allah forgive you.. Cause I can't.
You know what? I deserve my bf now. Cause I believe I'm so much better than I was last year. And I'm surely deserve a better friend.
I thought the one that i can call my friends are so nice cause they say good stuff in front of me. But i was wrong. They actually don't want to see me happy. :( Ya allah sedihnye... As you guys know, me and my bf has getting back together. I don't know a better reason for this except that we truly love each other. I know it was my fault back then but i learned my mistake. Who are you to judge me? I can judge you anytime I want, but I didn't. Why? Because you are my friend. And I believe people shouldn't be judge based on their past. I can spread about what you did in the past anytime I want but I don't want to. So why you did that to me?
It's start when I broke up with my bf. Yeah I know it was my fault. I know that my bf is a good person, he deserves someone better than me. But seriously I never thought that will come out from your mouth. Someone that I've called friend for years. What makes me lose my respect on you is you pretend to be so happy when i got back with my bf. Why? Sigh~ You even said that i'm lack with religion teaching. Seriously? Who are you to talk about my religion??? May Allah forgive you.. Cause I can't.
You know what? I deserve my bf now. Cause I believe I'm so much better than I was last year. And I'm surely deserve a better friend.
Monday, July 22, 2013
It's dating time
After 8 month, i finally get the chance to have a date with my bf. hee.. Why? because we broke up last year in november 2012 i think but fate has brought we here. We are together again! yeay... ^_^
Well, I went to Kuala Lumpur just a few days ago to meet him. It was delightful. It was so beautiful. Oh god, I miss him already. :( On the first day we went to Mid Valley to watch Monster University and Despicable Me. Monster University was ok-ok lah. I gave 5/10 because i expect more from the production after have to wait for 10 year.. huhu.. Then Despicable Me. hmmm... I don't know what to rate them because i was sleeping in the cinema. I'm so tired. :( But bf said it was a pretty good movies. It just that, it's focus too much on the minions instead of other character. Well, he's major in animation degree btw. He knows better. :D
The picture we took before watching Despicable Me. :)
The second day we went to Bukit Bintang. We park at Pavillion and walk to H&M and Sungei Wang. He bought a coat, a short and a pants. And i bought a green dress but we lost it somewhere in Pavillion. :( But then bf bought me another one. Hee.. I love you sayang. ^_^
Then we went to Times Square where i bought 2 shoes with really cheap price. hee.. This is the picture we took while waiting for H&M to open. :)
OMG he look so skinny and i'm so chubby. :(
After that, i went back to my hometown, Penang with my family. Sayang, i know you will read this. I just want you to know that I miss you even when i'm right beside you. And I really2 love you. xoxo
p/s : sorry for the grammar mistakes. :p
Well, I went to Kuala Lumpur just a few days ago to meet him. It was delightful. It was so beautiful. Oh god, I miss him already. :( On the first day we went to Mid Valley to watch Monster University and Despicable Me. Monster University was ok-ok lah. I gave 5/10 because i expect more from the production after have to wait for 10 year.. huhu.. Then Despicable Me. hmmm... I don't know what to rate them because i was sleeping in the cinema. I'm so tired. :( But bf said it was a pretty good movies. It just that, it's focus too much on the minions instead of other character. Well, he's major in animation degree btw. He knows better. :D
The picture we took before watching Despicable Me. :)
The second day we went to Bukit Bintang. We park at Pavillion and walk to H&M and Sungei Wang. He bought a coat, a short and a pants. And i bought a green dress but we lost it somewhere in Pavillion. :( But then bf bought me another one. Hee.. I love you sayang. ^_^
Then we went to Times Square where i bought 2 shoes with really cheap price. hee.. This is the picture we took while waiting for H&M to open. :)
OMG he look so skinny and i'm so chubby. :(
After that, i went back to my hometown, Penang with my family. Sayang, i know you will read this. I just want you to know that I miss you even when i'm right beside you. And I really2 love you. xoxo
p/s : sorry for the grammar mistakes. :p
pieces of me
this is just an humble entry talking about myself. my life.
Well.. basically i have a normal life. or that what they said. who can define normal btw? I have a pretty good life now. Good family. Caring bf. Lovable friends. I'm not a good person. But at least i tried to be one. The journey of getting me here is not beautiful. It is not.
Growing up, people are always mocking me on how ugly i am. They do. I have a very low self esteem growing up. When i walk, i cannot look up because i'm afraid of how people will look at me. I'm afraid of been calling ugly again. My relatives, they always call me fat whenever i'm going back to my late granny village. When i was a kid, no one wants to be friend with me just simply because i'm too ugly for them. They will say mean things to me. I was a child back then. I don't know how to handle such insult. Few years later i just got tired of being called ugly. I started to diet, wear better cloth, don't wear my hijab. yeah, i'm also a bulimic. I do not ashamed of calling me one. It's society who should be ashamed for putting me through all this. Well you know what? they succeeded. I start to gain my self esteem. Start dating. Start my new life.
I know i'm wrong. I realized it now. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. What makes them beautiful is their kind heart. Don't let anyone treat you the way you don't want to be treated. And don't treat anyone the way you don't want to be treated too. It's all about give and take. But try to give more. Trust me, you'll be happy on others happiness (if you have a kind heart).
So you know what? Don't blame me for being who i am today. You have no idea what life has put me through. I may not be perfect. But i'm trying to. Again, no one can define perfect after all. Some people thinks i live in comfort world growing up. They wrong. But now, after i've gained all that. I start to appreciate more things in my life. I'm happy. I'm blessed. One advice from me. Be kind. Cause you have no idea what your words mean to others. :)
Well.. basically i have a normal life. or that what they said. who can define normal btw? I have a pretty good life now. Good family. Caring bf. Lovable friends. I'm not a good person. But at least i tried to be one. The journey of getting me here is not beautiful. It is not.
Growing up, people are always mocking me on how ugly i am. They do. I have a very low self esteem growing up. When i walk, i cannot look up because i'm afraid of how people will look at me. I'm afraid of been calling ugly again. My relatives, they always call me fat whenever i'm going back to my late granny village. When i was a kid, no one wants to be friend with me just simply because i'm too ugly for them. They will say mean things to me. I was a child back then. I don't know how to handle such insult. Few years later i just got tired of being called ugly. I started to diet, wear better cloth, don't wear my hijab. yeah, i'm also a bulimic. I do not ashamed of calling me one. It's society who should be ashamed for putting me through all this. Well you know what? they succeeded. I start to gain my self esteem. Start dating. Start my new life.
I know i'm wrong. I realized it now. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. What makes them beautiful is their kind heart. Don't let anyone treat you the way you don't want to be treated. And don't treat anyone the way you don't want to be treated too. It's all about give and take. But try to give more. Trust me, you'll be happy on others happiness (if you have a kind heart).
So you know what? Don't blame me for being who i am today. You have no idea what life has put me through. I may not be perfect. But i'm trying to. Again, no one can define perfect after all. Some people thinks i live in comfort world growing up. They wrong. But now, after i've gained all that. I start to appreciate more things in my life. I'm happy. I'm blessed. One advice from me. Be kind. Cause you have no idea what your words mean to others. :)
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
i'm in love and i love it. ^_^
tajuk cam acah2 bahagia je. hihihi. well, yeah i'm happy now. truly happy. I look at things differently now. I appreciate little things more now. Be grateful for anything and everything in my life and even it may get rough someday, i'll get over it. We all do right? it just the process in facing it that hurt. But trust me, you'll be just fine in the end. :)
heee ok enough with lecturer. Now, let see why i'm so happy.. hmmm
heee.. sayang is the reason why i'm so happy now. apart from my family of course. :) well yeah we have a lot of pictures when skyping cause that's the only time that we meet each other since my house and his house is about 5 hours journey by car. T_T. But as i said, i'm grateful. I don't mind the long distance relationship as long there is trust and loyalty in both of us. I believe him and I know he believe me too and that what's important in every relationship. Hey, you can't be in a relationship where there is no trust right? ^_^
But anyway, it just 5 hours journey so i'm meeting him this saturday in KL. Yeay! can't wait. Ouh and today 18/7/2013 is our 1 year and 2 month relationship. I want to be in this relationship till we died insyaallah. Ok, so long my dear friends. Remember, appreciate all those little things in your life and you'll be looking at the world differently. Assalamualaikum
heee ok enough with lecturer. Now, let see why i'm so happy.. hmmm
heee.. sayang is the reason why i'm so happy now. apart from my family of course. :) well yeah we have a lot of pictures when skyping cause that's the only time that we meet each other since my house and his house is about 5 hours journey by car. T_T. But as i said, i'm grateful. I don't mind the long distance relationship as long there is trust and loyalty in both of us. I believe him and I know he believe me too and that what's important in every relationship. Hey, you can't be in a relationship where there is no trust right? ^_^
But anyway, it just 5 hours journey so i'm meeting him this saturday in KL. Yeay! can't wait. Ouh and today 18/7/2013 is our 1 year and 2 month relationship. I want to be in this relationship till we died insyaallah. Ok, so long my dear friends. Remember, appreciate all those little things in your life and you'll be looking at the world differently. Assalamualaikum
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