Stop accusing, it's bad for your heart

What will you feel when people questioning your loyalty? I don't know bout you but I'm hurt. Really hurt. For some people, they might just explaining the real thing to their partner and might begging to trust them too but I don't want to. Why should I explaining thing that I didn't do. He don't trust me. That his trust issue, not mine. I never been faithfull to any guy. Never. But this time I did because I can never love any guy the way I love him.  So when people accused me on thing I didn't do, geez dude, you have an issue. Go fix that before you hurt another person after this.

Sincerely, me.


“No matter how many people believe or don’t believe in you, you must be
the ultimate believer in yourself!”

Loyalty sucks

I used to be called bitch for jumping from another guy to another. They don't know I did that just to protect my heart. I used to be loyal to a guy when I was 18. And when I'm loyal, it's mean that he can crush my heart so badly. When we broke up, even though I found his replacement, it took me 2 years to actually erased him completely from my heart. How's that happened? Well 2 years after we broke up, we met. We got kinda attached again and this time, he did something that took my dignity in the lowest bottom. It hurts so much that I literally cannot stop crying for the whole day. My tears just don't want to stop cause it's to painful to handle. I was devastated. But I'm grateful he hurt me this time cause when the tears dried, my feeling for him has totally gone. I don't know how it's happened, it just happened.

My point is, I'm scared to be loyal. I am loyal right now with my bf. and being loyal to him has made me vulnerable. I can get so hurt from just missing him. I get hurt for the smallest thing and I hate it. I hate the feeling when you love a person too much, you automatically gives that person a pass to hurt you.

Being a bitch sometimes is much more better than being a saint...