What will you feel when people questioning your loyalty? I don't know bout you but I'm hurt. Really hurt. For some people, they might just explaining the real thing to their partner and might begging to trust them too but I don't want to. Why should I explaining thing that I didn't do. He don't trust me. That his trust issue, not mine. I never been faithfull to any guy. Never. But this time I did because I can never love any guy the way I love him. So when people accused me on thing I didn't do, geez dude, you have an issue. Go fix that before you hurt another person after this.
Sincerely, me.
“No matter how many people believe or don’t believe in you, you must be
the ultimate believer in yourself!”
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Monday, March 10, 2014
Loyalty sucks
I used to be called bitch for jumping from another guy to another. They don't know I did that just to protect my heart. I used to be loyal to a guy when I was 18. And when I'm loyal, it's mean that he can crush my heart so badly. When we broke up, even though I found his replacement, it took me 2 years to actually erased him completely from my heart. How's that happened? Well 2 years after we broke up, we met. We got kinda attached again and this time, he did something that took my dignity in the lowest bottom. It hurts so much that I literally cannot stop crying for the whole day. My tears just don't want to stop cause it's to painful to handle. I was devastated. But I'm grateful he hurt me this time cause when the tears dried, my feeling for him has totally gone. I don't know how it's happened, it just happened.
My point is, I'm scared to be loyal. I am loyal right now with my bf. and being loyal to him has made me vulnerable. I can get so hurt from just missing him. I get hurt for the smallest thing and I hate it. I hate the feeling when you love a person too much, you automatically gives that person a pass to hurt you.
Being a bitch sometimes is much more better than being a saint...
My point is, I'm scared to be loyal. I am loyal right now with my bf. and being loyal to him has made me vulnerable. I can get so hurt from just missing him. I get hurt for the smallest thing and I hate it. I hate the feeling when you love a person too much, you automatically gives that person a pass to hurt you.
Being a bitch sometimes is much more better than being a saint...
Sunday, September 8, 2013
Hong Kong trip 2
Turkish food. nyum2..
ok, after went to Madame Tussads, Avenue of stars is our next stop. It just 15 minutes walk from our guest house.. :)
Finally, Disneyland. heee
Sinba the musical.. ^_^
The view from their library. Really beautiful..
eating chinese food at last. sedap... :)
Ok, thats it. I want to make a full journey. I mean the cost, what train station you should use and etc but I forgot already. heee.. bye2
Hong Kong trip
I went to Hong Kong like a month ago if i'm not mistaken. It was a week after raya. Well, we supposed go to Umrah but Arab Saudi government don't want to give out visa because Haji season is coming. Yeah, so we went to Hong Kong instead. heheh..
I was so excited since it is the 3rd country i visited after Thailand and Indonesia. Honestly, Hong Kong to me is like Singapore + Kuala Lumpur. Why? There's a lot of chinese, tourists, their building and train is just like the combination of the 2 states. We stay at a guest house cause the hotels are quite expensive since China has the most citizens compare to other countries. And there's not enough place to fit all the people. Even the guest house is quite expensive. You can stay at 3 star hotel in Malaysia with the money. huhu..
Their people are not so friendly. It's almost usual to be scold by the taxi driver or restaurant waiter. That's just how they are and nothing you can do about that. Just "keringkan hati" and you'll be fine. Communication is not a problem since majority of the Hong Kong people can speak a very good english. Before you go to overseas trip, make sure to check the weather first. When we went there, it's the typhoon season. So yeah, we walk through the rain and the heavy wind. But overall, we enjoyed our trip and I've gained a new perspective towards this city.. :)
The above pictures is on our first day in Hong Kong. We went to their library but they almost close so we went back there on the last day. We ate at indian restaurant. Quite pricey but delicious though.. :)
was so excited to go to Disneyland.... This picture is in their train to the Disneyland. Cute huh?
Sadly, Disneyland was closed due to the typhoon.. :(
We went to the Disneyland hotel. The hotel is magnificent. But couldn't afford it though. heee
After that we went to Madame Tussauds at The Peak. You can choose to go there by their tram which just like train at Bukit Bendera, Penang. We went up there by taxi and go back by the tram.
Found nescafe at their 7e. heee
My soulmate, mr Johny Depp.. <3
3rd and 4th day on next post.. ^_^
I was so excited since it is the 3rd country i visited after Thailand and Indonesia. Honestly, Hong Kong to me is like Singapore + Kuala Lumpur. Why? There's a lot of chinese, tourists, their building and train is just like the combination of the 2 states. We stay at a guest house cause the hotels are quite expensive since China has the most citizens compare to other countries. And there's not enough place to fit all the people. Even the guest house is quite expensive. You can stay at 3 star hotel in Malaysia with the money. huhu..
Their people are not so friendly. It's almost usual to be scold by the taxi driver or restaurant waiter. That's just how they are and nothing you can do about that. Just "keringkan hati" and you'll be fine. Communication is not a problem since majority of the Hong Kong people can speak a very good english. Before you go to overseas trip, make sure to check the weather first. When we went there, it's the typhoon season. So yeah, we walk through the rain and the heavy wind. But overall, we enjoyed our trip and I've gained a new perspective towards this city.. :)
The above pictures is on our first day in Hong Kong. We went to their library but they almost close so we went back there on the last day. We ate at indian restaurant. Quite pricey but delicious though.. :)
was so excited to go to Disneyland.... This picture is in their train to the Disneyland. Cute huh?
Sadly, Disneyland was closed due to the typhoon.. :(
We went to the Disneyland hotel. The hotel is magnificent. But couldn't afford it though. heee
After that we went to Madame Tussauds at The Peak. You can choose to go there by their tram which just like train at Bukit Bendera, Penang. We went up there by taxi and go back by the tram.
My soulmate, mr Johny Depp.. <3
3rd and 4th day on next post.. ^_^
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
Stuck between two
Lol. You think I can't guess the truth behind all this chaos? I'm 22. Not 12. I know there's something wrong bout the story I heard. Anyway, it just one side of story that has been told. Sampai bila2 pun aku x kan tau sape betul sape salah. Itu aku aware. Both side wanna win. But I choose to be with the side that do not say harsh words to me through twitter. Social network brings more negative than positive isn't they? Sigh~~
Even if I heard your side of story, even if your's story is the right story after all, tell me. How can I be ok after all the harsh words you gave to me? I can't. The story alone has make me cry. Apetah lagi those harsh words.. No. I cannot tolerate with mean words. I just can't.
Even if I heard your side of story, even if your's story is the right story after all, tell me. How can I be ok after all the harsh words you gave to me? I can't. The story alone has make me cry. Apetah lagi those harsh words.. No. I cannot tolerate with mean words. I just can't.
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Disappointed
I'm so disappointed after hearing what my bf said yesterday. Sedih. Kecewa. Marah. Orang cakap harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi. huhuhu..
I thought the one that i can call my friends are so nice cause they say good stuff in front of me. But i was wrong. They actually don't want to see me happy. :( Ya allah sedihnye... As you guys know, me and my bf has getting back together. I don't know a better reason for this except that we truly love each other. I know it was my fault back then but i learned my mistake. Who are you to judge me? I can judge you anytime I want, but I didn't. Why? Because you are my friend. And I believe people shouldn't be judge based on their past. I can spread about what you did in the past anytime I want but I don't want to. So why you did that to me?
It's start when I broke up with my bf. Yeah I know it was my fault. I know that my bf is a good person, he deserves someone better than me. But seriously I never thought that will come out from your mouth. Someone that I've called friend for years. What makes me lose my respect on you is you pretend to be so happy when i got back with my bf. Why? Sigh~ You even said that i'm lack with religion teaching. Seriously? Who are you to talk about my religion??? May Allah forgive you.. Cause I can't.
You know what? I deserve my bf now. Cause I believe I'm so much better than I was last year. And I'm surely deserve a better friend.
I thought the one that i can call my friends are so nice cause they say good stuff in front of me. But i was wrong. They actually don't want to see me happy. :( Ya allah sedihnye... As you guys know, me and my bf has getting back together. I don't know a better reason for this except that we truly love each other. I know it was my fault back then but i learned my mistake. Who are you to judge me? I can judge you anytime I want, but I didn't. Why? Because you are my friend. And I believe people shouldn't be judge based on their past. I can spread about what you did in the past anytime I want but I don't want to. So why you did that to me?
It's start when I broke up with my bf. Yeah I know it was my fault. I know that my bf is a good person, he deserves someone better than me. But seriously I never thought that will come out from your mouth. Someone that I've called friend for years. What makes me lose my respect on you is you pretend to be so happy when i got back with my bf. Why? Sigh~ You even said that i'm lack with religion teaching. Seriously? Who are you to talk about my religion??? May Allah forgive you.. Cause I can't.
You know what? I deserve my bf now. Cause I believe I'm so much better than I was last year. And I'm surely deserve a better friend.
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