Interview HSBC

Well.. My previous post dah tulis yang I resign from my current company so basically I'm desperately seeking for a new job now. I did go to a few interview in the last 2 month. 1st company yang I pergi ialah HSBC Electronic Data Processing (M) Sdn Bhd. So nak cerita pengalaman interview dia macam mana.

I apply through jobstreet. Apply about 10 minutes then somebody called me from HSBC Philippines. There was 10 minutes phone interview. Interview punya interview dia mintak datang face to face interview the next coming week. I sampai HSBC tu around 12 pm. Dia ada 2 stage which is 1st, grammar test. Dah lepas test baru dapat interview. kalau fail test bye bye lah citer dia. Yang datang tu around 40 people I think. Yang lepas test ada la around 20 kot.

Ok, so test dia x de la susah gila ke. Tapi confusing jugak and 1 soalan ada 30 saat sahaja. x sempat jawab rugi la 1 soalan. Oh and it was a computer test. Alhamdullillah I lepas test dia. Then I tunggu la turn untuk interview. Nasib la dapat sorang or 2 org interviewer. I dapat 2 org. Both indian guy. one guy like to smile and another guy seems so serious. But I guess it just him try to acting garang. hee.. Soalan dia basic la tanya pasal pengalaman kerja, strengh and weaknesses, and banyak sangat lagi. I rasa interview I ada la 40 minit kot.

I habis interview around 7pm. So 7 jam I tunggu dari nak test sampai interview. So sape2 kalau dapat interview to make sure prepare your mental and fizikal ok. Makan siap2 and bawak la bekal ke ape. Ha and orang HSBC call I 2 hari lepas and bagitau I berjaya dapat kerja tu. Tapi.. I pun x tau lagi macam mana. Gaji dia memang menarik. Tapi U kena willing untuk kerja waktu yang agak odd. Sebab this is international company so U kena deal dengan orang dari negara luar la. Let say U kena jaga UK punya region. Kita kena ikut waktu kerja dorang and waktu cuti dorang. No raya2 whatsoever. Kita boleh apply la kot. Dapat x dapat belakang cerita.

So.. I'm still thinking bout this job. Hope by this month I dapat la petunjuk ke ape pasal ni.

I'm working~~~

Dah lama x pos kat blog ni. Berhabuk bersawang semua ada. Last I post sini I think about my heart broke or something. hahaha.. So the guy that I was so in love with, left me. Well.. I don't give a f**k anymore bout him. Dah berapa bulan break pun I dah x ingat. :p

I do have a new bf now. But this time I just want to keep it low. What I can say is he such a nice guy. Nicer than any guy that I used to meet.. hehe.. But I won't give so much hope this time. I do love him but let's Allah plan the best for me. As for me, I do hope he is the one for me. :)

Anyway, I'm working now. Wohoo.. nahh.. not that wohoo. I am not that happy anyway. I just hoping to continue my Master Degree after degree but my parents ask me to work. T_T Long story short, I resign from my current company yang berkuatkuasa 31/1/2015. What I'm going to do after this? Entah lah.. Jobless~~~

Stop accusing, it's bad for your heart

What will you feel when people questioning your loyalty? I don't know bout you but I'm hurt. Really hurt. For some people, they might just explaining the real thing to their partner and might begging to trust them too but I don't want to. Why should I explaining thing that I didn't do. He don't trust me. That his trust issue, not mine. I never been faithfull to any guy. Never. But this time I did because I can never love any guy the way I love him.  So when people accused me on thing I didn't do, geez dude, you have an issue. Go fix that before you hurt another person after this.

Sincerely, me.


“No matter how many people believe or don’t believe in you, you must be
the ultimate believer in yourself!”

Loyalty sucks

I used to be called bitch for jumping from another guy to another. They don't know I did that just to protect my heart. I used to be loyal to a guy when I was 18. And when I'm loyal, it's mean that he can crush my heart so badly. When we broke up, even though I found his replacement, it took me 2 years to actually erased him completely from my heart. How's that happened? Well 2 years after we broke up, we met. We got kinda attached again and this time, he did something that took my dignity in the lowest bottom. It hurts so much that I literally cannot stop crying for the whole day. My tears just don't want to stop cause it's to painful to handle. I was devastated. But I'm grateful he hurt me this time cause when the tears dried, my feeling for him has totally gone. I don't know how it's happened, it just happened.

My point is, I'm scared to be loyal. I am loyal right now with my bf. and being loyal to him has made me vulnerable. I can get so hurt from just missing him. I get hurt for the smallest thing and I hate it. I hate the feeling when you love a person too much, you automatically gives that person a pass to hurt you.

Being a bitch sometimes is much more better than being a saint...

Hong Kong trip 2

Turkish food. nyum2..

ok, after went to Madame Tussads, Avenue of stars is our next stop. It just 15 minutes walk from our guest house.. :)

Finally, Disneyland. heee

Sinba the musical.. ^_^

The view from their library. Really beautiful..

eating chinese food at last. sedap... :)

Ok, thats it. I want to make a full journey. I mean the cost, what train station you should use and etc but I forgot already. heee.. bye2

Hong Kong trip

I went to Hong Kong like a month ago if i'm not mistaken. It was a week after raya. Well, we supposed go to Umrah but Arab Saudi government don't want to give out visa because Haji season is coming. Yeah, so we went to Hong Kong instead. heheh..

I was so excited since it is the 3rd country i visited after Thailand and Indonesia. Honestly, Hong Kong to me is like Singapore + Kuala Lumpur. Why? There's a lot of chinese, tourists, their building and train is just like the combination of the 2 states. We stay at a guest house cause the hotels are quite expensive since China has the most citizens compare to other countries. And there's not enough place to fit all the people. Even the guest house is quite expensive. You can stay at 3 star hotel in Malaysia with the money. huhu..

Their people are not so friendly. It's almost usual to be scold by the taxi driver or restaurant waiter. That's just how they are and nothing you can do about that. Just "keringkan hati" and you'll be fine. Communication is not a problem since majority of the Hong Kong people can speak a very good english. Before you go to overseas trip, make sure to check the weather first. When we went there, it's the typhoon season. So yeah, we walk through the rain and the heavy wind. But overall, we enjoyed our trip and I've gained a new perspective towards this city.. :)

The above pictures is on our first day in Hong Kong. We went to their library but they almost close so we went back there on the last day. We ate at indian restaurant. Quite pricey but delicious though.. :)

was so excited to go to Disneyland.... This picture is in their train to the Disneyland. Cute huh?

Sadly, Disneyland was closed due to the typhoon.. :(

We went to the Disneyland hotel. The hotel is magnificent. But couldn't afford it though. heee

After that we went to Madame Tussauds at The Peak. You can choose to go there by their tram which just like train at Bukit Bendera, Penang. We went up there by taxi and go back by the tram.

 Found nescafe at their 7e. heee

My soulmate, mr Johny Depp.. <3

3rd and 4th day on next post.. ^_^

Stuck between two

Lol. You think I can't guess the truth behind all this chaos? I'm 22. Not 12. I know there's something wrong bout the story I heard. Anyway, it just one side of story that has been told. Sampai bila2 pun aku x kan tau sape betul sape salah. Itu aku aware. Both side wanna win. But I choose to be with the side that do not say harsh words to me through twitter. Social network brings more negative than positive isn't they? Sigh~~

Even if I heard your side of story, even if your's story is the right story after all, tell me. How can I be ok after all the harsh words you gave to me? I can't. The story alone has make me cry. Apetah lagi those harsh words.. No. I cannot tolerate with mean words. I just can't.

Disappointed

I'm so disappointed after hearing what my bf said yesterday. Sedih. Kecewa. Marah. Orang cakap harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi. huhuhu..

I thought the one that i can call my friends are so nice cause they say good stuff in front of me. But i was wrong. They actually don't want to see me happy. :( Ya allah sedihnye... As you guys know, me and my bf has getting back together. I don't know a better reason for this except that we truly love each other. I know it was my fault back then but i learned my mistake. Who are you to judge me? I can judge you anytime I want, but I didn't. Why? Because you are my friend. And I believe people shouldn't be judge based on their past. I can spread about what you did in the past anytime I want but I don't want to. So why you did that to me?

It's start when I broke up with my bf. Yeah I know it was my fault. I know that my bf is a good person, he deserves someone better than me. But seriously I never thought that will come out from your mouth. Someone that I've called friend for years. What makes me lose my respect on you is you pretend to be so happy when i got back with my bf. Why? Sigh~ You even said that i'm lack with religion teaching. Seriously? Who are you to talk about my religion??? May Allah forgive you.. Cause I can't.

You know what? I deserve my bf now. Cause I believe I'm so much better than I was last year. And I'm surely deserve a better friend.

It's dating time

After 8 month, i finally get the chance to have a date with my bf. hee.. Why? because we broke up last year in november 2012 i think but fate has brought we here. We are together again! yeay... ^_^

Well, I went to Kuala Lumpur just a few days ago to meet him. It was delightful. It was so beautiful. Oh god, I miss him already. :( On the first day we went to Mid Valley to watch Monster University and Despicable Me. Monster University was ok-ok lah. I gave 5/10 because i expect more from the production after have to wait for 10 year.. huhu.. Then Despicable Me. hmmm... I don't know what to rate them because i was sleeping in the cinema. I'm so tired. :( But bf said it was a pretty good movies. It just that, it's focus too much on the minions instead of other character. Well, he's major in animation degree btw. He knows better. :D

The picture we took before watching Despicable Me. :)

The second day we went to Bukit Bintang. We park at Pavillion and walk to H&M and Sungei Wang. He bought a coat, a short and a pants. And i bought a green dress but we lost it somewhere in Pavillion. :( But then bf bought me another one. Hee.. I love you sayang. ^_^

Then we went to Times Square where i bought 2 shoes with really cheap price. hee.. This is the picture we took while waiting for H&M to open. :)

OMG he look so skinny and i'm so chubby. :(

After that, i went back to my hometown, Penang with my family. Sayang, i know you will read this. I just want you to know that I miss you even when i'm right beside you. And I really2 love you. xoxo

p/s : sorry for the grammar mistakes. :p

pieces of me

this is just an humble entry talking about myself. my life.

Well.. basically i have a normal life. or that what they said. who can define normal btw? I have a pretty good life now. Good family. Caring bf. Lovable friends. I'm not a good person. But at least i tried to be one. The journey of getting me here is not beautiful. It is not.

Growing up, people are always mocking me on how ugly i am. They do. I have a very low self esteem growing up. When i walk, i cannot look up because i'm afraid of how people will look at me. I'm afraid of been calling ugly again. My relatives, they always call me fat whenever i'm going back to my late granny village. When i was a kid, no one wants to be friend with me just simply because i'm too ugly for them. They will say mean things to me. I was a child back then. I don't know how to handle such insult. Few years later i just got tired of being called ugly. I started to diet, wear better cloth, don't wear my hijab. yeah, i'm also a bulimic. I do not ashamed of calling me one. It's society who should be ashamed for putting me through all this. Well you know what? they succeeded. I start to gain my self esteem. Start dating. Start my new life.

I know i'm wrong. I realized it now. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. What makes them beautiful is their kind heart. Don't let anyone treat you the way you don't want to be treated. And don't treat anyone the way you don't want to be treated too. It's all about give and take. But try to give more. Trust me, you'll be happy on others happiness (if you have a kind heart).

So you know what? Don't blame me for being who i am today. You have no idea what life has put me through. I may not be perfect. But i'm trying to. Again, no one can define perfect after all. Some people thinks i live in comfort world growing up. They wrong. But now, after i've gained all that. I start to appreciate more things in my life. I'm happy. I'm blessed. One advice from me. Be kind. Cause you have no idea what your words mean to others. :)

i'm in love and i love it. ^_^

tajuk cam acah2 bahagia je. hihihi. well, yeah i'm happy now. truly happy. I look at things differently now. I appreciate little things more now. Be grateful for anything and everything in my life and even it may get rough someday, i'll get over it. We all do right? it just the process in facing it that hurt. But trust me, you'll be just fine in the end. :)

heee ok enough with lecturer. Now, let see why i'm so happy.. hmmm

 heee.. sayang is the reason why i'm so happy now. apart from my family of course. :) well yeah we have a lot of pictures when skyping cause that's the only time that we meet each other since my house and his house is about 5 hours journey by car. T_T. But as i said, i'm grateful. I don't mind the long distance relationship as long there is trust and loyalty in both of us. I believe him and I know he believe me too and that what's important in every relationship. Hey, you can't be in a relationship where there is no trust right? ^_^

But anyway, it just 5 hours journey so i'm meeting him this saturday in KL. Yeay! can't wait. Ouh and today 18/7/2013 is our 1 year and 2 month relationship. I want to be in this relationship till we died insyaallah. Ok, so long my dear friends. Remember, appreciate all those little things in your life and you'll be looking at the world differently. Assalamualaikum

thank you allah

thank you allah cause you has fulfill one of my dream ever. to get back with him.after almost 8 month, now he come back to me. God knows how much i love him. how much i suffered from losing him. now that we has get back together, no words can describe how happy i am. sometimes i will just sit and smiled like crazy person and thinking how lucky i am and it makes me cry. I never expect i will get him back cause i thought he hated me already but it seems that my thought is wrong.. :) i lose you once, i won't lose you again. i learned a lot while u gone. i realized my stupid mistakes and i promise you insyaallah i won't repeat that mistake again..

thank you allah for this great person in my life.. :)

love is eternity

i told ya that i love u more. u didn't believe me. we broke up like 7 month i think. and i still love you. i hate this feeling. you have no idea how much it hurts.. :(

but you my dear, looks like you have moved on with another girl. lucky her, i say. it proved that you didn't love me as much as i do. but it's ok. it always one person who will love the most. i know that i hurts you at the past, but just so you know, i regret what i have done. i do. but things wont't be the same again, no matter how much i pray to have you back. no. it's impossible.

I want to forget u so badly. cause it hurts me so badly too. just listening to your name is enough to give me heart ache. not hating way, the sad way.. and my parents? yeah, they love you. keep saying things like "bakal menantu", "pergi dubai" and stuff. they have no idea how sad i am listening to that. but i keep the happy face cause i know that how much they want us to get back together, it is impossible.

i don't know how much i've cried when our memories appeared. and i'm still crying. i don't know love can hurts so bad. :( but someday i will be ok. it just the matter of time. till then, i'll wait.

tired of writing

is it ok if i post a video? my video of cause. hahahha.. well, i have to give it a try.. :D

i got a burn :(

   hey guys.. I terkena minyak panas semalam. sakit sangat.. :(  malang betul rasa. baru nak masak spageti.. lepas kena tu mak bawak i pergi klinik. tapi doctor tu cakap dia x dapat buat pape so kiteorang pegi KPJ hospital kat Perda. oh my, service kat situ sangat2 lambat plus, doctor x ade bila malam so yang rawat i medical officer je. lambat gila nak tunggu dia rawat.. dah la mahal.. :(

that officer give me this cream. silver cream amende ntah untuk rawat burn. susah la nak buat keje dengan luka ni. susah. serius. my mom pulak risau nanti tinggal parut. but now kan ade laser treatment. mahal tapi.. mahal lah.. :D

i wish i have a boyfriend untuk mengadu domba.. T_T ahad ni nak balik arau dah. assignment ape satu pun x sentuh lagi. i'm dead. urghhhhh. this is boring...

Convocation

Lupa nak update pasal convo.. Ishhh...

Ha, I convo haritu bulan 11. Berapa haribulan ntah x ingat sebab dah lama. heheh.. Held at UITM Shah Alam, the main campus.

And now i'm oficially a diploma holder.. ^_^