i got what i want but not what i need

First of all, i bersyukur sebab in dean list lagi sem ni..
a lot of thanks to all my lectures, family, abid safwan for the prays everytime before i enter the hall and my friends that gives me support and be together with me all along..i appreciate sangat2..Allah je dapat balas jasa korang..to madam hayati, saya dah janji nak belanja madam makan kalau saya dapat A in operation management so nanti bukak sem sy belanja okiey.. ^_^

Be in dean list is what i want since in semester 1..it is what i WANT..but i realized it is not what i actually need..well, yeah i need it to make my parent proud and to stay in college but when i lost Amirul Loco, i know this is not what i really need..

Sadly, my bff gb(failed) so he has to drop off college..sedih sangat..i kenal dia since semester 2 dalam kelas Bel..He's naughty, selalu bising dalam kelas, selalu datang lewat/tak datang and i was actually don't really like him..But the time pass by since then and i got to know him closely..He's nice, gentle (but rarely show it), and paling i suka about Amirul ni dia selalu tolong kawan..

I remember when i get really tension on 2 in the morning, the day for my Test 1 organizational behavior and then he Ping me on bbm..i told him i was tension and we meet up..yeah, on 2 am..itu yang paling i ingat pasal dia..i terharu sebab dalam dunia ni still ada kawan macam dia.. T_T

pukul 3 pagi tadi masa dia bbm i cakap dia gb, i terus menangis..sebab i realize i akan kehilangan kawan yang dah banyak bantu i selama ni..pape pun kiteorang still kawan..i tak nak hilang kawan yang baik macam dia..i cried my eyes out sampai bangun pagi tadi my mom pun tegur kenapa mata bengkak sangat..

entah la..i sedih sangat..kalau boleh share pointer ni dah lama i nak kasi dekat Amirul Loco so dia akan stay kat college and support me like always.. :'(

Amirul Loco, you take care ok..Just remember that you always had me, had your friends that always gonna support you in good or bad..i will miss you a lot my good friend..so long.. T_T

p/s : dengar lagu phill colins- you'll be in my heart.. :'(